Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely whatever is admirable-- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-- think about such things. Philippians 4: 8
I have been depressed for weeks, maybe months. For the last week or two or several, I have felt like a burden to my family and friends with my Eeyore mood walking around under my rainstorm cloud.
Over the last few days, I have been given a huge gift. The sun (or likely, the Son) has been shining again. I am blessed with a husband who loves me, children who are gifts from God, a loving, supportive church family, and sister friends who are family in my heart. And I have also been blessed to find bloggers to follow who are positive, giving people who have decided that for 31 days (October) they will bless their readers with inspiring, uplifting messages. Some are home educators; most are Christ followers; some love to share their home decor ideas; all of them inspire me in some way.
And so suddenly, I am questioning, "Why am I depressed?" I realize I am allowing my mind to dwell where it needs not to dwell. My life is not perfect, nor are my relationships. I am not perfect; as much as I love them, I can attest that neither are my family and friends. I have messed up some (a lot) this year. But honestly, am I the only one? Who hasn't messed up from time to time? I have made my apologies. Though they may not feel right to the receivers, I AM SORRY. My apologies are sincere and given in love. If others cannot or will not forgive me for being human, for making mistakes, then that becomes their problem, not mine. I cannot, should not, dwell in that void or place of ill feelings.
Thank you so much to the ones who have influenced my decision to walk out of the storm and to live in the Sonshine and to do what I can do. I can only change myself and live my best life -- and that is where I am choosing to dwell -- body, mind, soul, and spirit!
I am not saying that I won't have moments or even days of downheartedness, I know I will. That is part of life on this earth. But I know Whom I come from and to Whom I am going and Whom I serve and that is really all I need to know to live my best life here and now.
Pressing on in Him,