You may have noticed that I have been quiet lately. I realized that I have become shy about sharing my words because in the last few months, they have had a stinging/hurting effect on some people I love.
While having lunch with a young mom friend, I shared a bit of family drama in which I recently participated. I mentioned to her that I had written a letter to the other party(ies.) Her immediate response was, "Oh no, not one of your letters!" I asked what she meant. She reminded me that she had been a recipient of one of my letters, via email, when we both had been going through trying times. I had blurted out to her how I felt at that moment in time about our relationship and, specifically, my diminished role in her life and the lives of her children. May I just say that sometimes I cut off my nose to spite my face? WHAT WAS I THINKING?
I wasn't thinking, I was feeling! And most of the time, I need to just keep my feelings to myself because, quite often, they are different by the next day, week, or month! And if only I had kept them to myself, I wouldn't have hurt some other person!
I have spent the last weeks surveying the aftermath of my days of sharing my words (feelings.) I began to see the folly of my actions and became afraid to share my words. But through counsel from a dear friend and adviser, I have once again become motivated to share my words here in this place. I will work hard to learn from the folly of my past and use caution while still attempting to speak the truth in love. I will also work at discerning between the TRUTH and my feelings on the matters of my mind.
In the meantime, you might hear me singing to myself that old Vacation Bible School song, Oh Be Careful Little (Big) Mouth What You Say!
Pressing on in Him,